Life is? Friends are? Let go.

Finally letting it go. Like said, things that are meant to be yours will return to you if it is meant for.

It is in the morning now, early wee hours rather. I am staying up tonight suppose for the Chinese tradition of Shou Ye. In English term, it is said that on the eve's night till morning the next day, children are supposed to stay up later for blessings for their parents. The later, the better.

I am currently(yes, now) chatting to my two friends, close chums : Dingxuan and Weelun. hhaa, it is interesting how we're talking about the word Life, and our definition of it.

We got on this discussion by chance when Dicky was mentioning how Life is like a circle. Always returning to the same point, being so boring. Things you once did when you were young, showing a repetition once again in your life now.
For a cold joke, dingxuan added in this when i rebutted that his definition of life is so mundane : how is a circle not complicating @@, did geometry proof?
However, he did conclude to us that " no one leads a life that is simple and smooth!" Yes everyone knows that but how many are actually able to comprehend that and blend it into their lives so easily? Doubt many.

It was then my turn. I compared Life to being inside a Maze. Once you were born, you had already entered this Maze. In some parts of life, you thought some things were resolved and done with and the path ahead will be clear for you. Suddenly, you're stuck with an obstacle- resembling a dead end/ mirrored wall- like one encounters in a maze when he is lost. You find a path finally, and then you face another obstacle. You entered a wrong path and have to reverse. Like a repetition of tick tocks as though you're being played. how interesting.

Obama gave one ambiguous definition. Life is like a dream, it is short, so enjoy while we can. Anything can happen, and yet usually things that you do not wish for, happens. I had a reply, how is it that you're able to enjoy when things you do not wish for happens :O.

That was what we discussed for the past hour or so, maybe lesser.

Any, i mentioned about the fear of being in a totally new environment where everyone is no one whom you know in my first blog. I believe for MOST of us, we're having this kind of little teeny-weeny "fear" in us. It is so how interesting that this sort of feeling was not felt when we left our primary school and happily moved onto the next phrase of life, Secondary life. Then, it wasn't felt or didn't have a huge impact as we were still little children and weren't exactly matured. Now, it is a total different thing. We had grown matured, tall, almost in every aspect of life and had been too used to this "comfort zone" of ours like a baby toddler in his crib. Hardly suffered any hardships or been through one. Thus, the result of this.

To some this "As empty vessels make the loudest sound, so they that have the least wit are the greatest blabbers" might be in your thoughts now, I may sound exaggerated but can you deny that this is not happening to any of your friend? Lets just hope, and the best bet will be that all of us, classmates friends comrades likewise, will still contact each other. The past holidays have already been a good gauge of how "united" friends can be. Heard of "Unity spirit", "class spirit"? Buddies for life? Now do you feel that all those were just mere 'swears' or simply trash? Either which it is the same. Thinking back, i have this mentality now that if 'we' are to be able to have gatherings once in a while, it will be more than good.

Lets break out of this comfort zone we have had for the last 4years and be open to new friends :D

Finally, thinking back, sort of a reminiscence, i feel really guilty for what had happened. Yea but whats done have already been done and can't be undone. Lucky for me that we are starting to chat as friends, should heed jiaqi jie's advise. Muddleheaded am i still. I have no idea what is making me feel so (no idea of expressing it in words). Like when i see you in face, i get the imajerk feeling. Lucky jiaqi had helped me. Thanks ahlian sis.

For the past week and weeks, i have been starting to watch dramas, shows and serials online. Not the typical hardcore chiong-ster type but still, overwatching at times. My serious insomnia is a result of watching the shows :/. Looking forward to watching ShaoLin Sheng Bing, Moonlight Resonance and more mainland dramas soon, soon before my hectic DPA PPP and CDS programme takes off.

I cannot believe this is turning out to be one of my wordiest post!
hereby signing off, yinxian.