O's, Love.

Received the O's results almost a week back. I am very thankful and utterly grateful for the grades. Previously, my prelims were screwed fucking badly with L1R4 17 and L1R5 being 23. Still, i didn't study much for my O's other than concentrating on languages, Amaths and Geography, thus i didnt hold much hopes.
Initially my target for english was B3 and it turned out to be a distinction and my combine humanities shocked me. Perhaps its like what mrGoh and Dicky had told me, humanities subjs cannot be studied, rather, they are ideas being comprehended and reiterated. So true.
The disappointing part comes for me Amaths. Didnt get an A1 despite redoing the TYS maybe twice :(
Rather thankful that i achieved r4 of 8 and r5 of 11.

Yes man, MrHafeez is GREAT.so is Madam Yow, Mdm Tay, Mr Goh ! Without them, the aces wouldnt even have been a reality. Screw Ms Lee. The teacher who never fail to be sarcastic? :D

Those who might chance upon this blog might wonder, "hey, why is yinxian not posting this on his public blog?". The answer is because just as i have friends and chums, there are people who detest me and might just think that i am boasting for had i blogged this in YX1.bs. Thus, it will be a safer bet to blog about it here.

Considering my scores, its considerable good. What if i am rather inclined towards academics? I fail at my own relationship. If you'd ask me, i rather i had done better at relationships rather than academically. Sounds stupid but i can't go anywhere even with my grades.
A little too not over you is almost a reflection of the situation i am in.
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

An empty nut case i am at relations.

A positive note : Do not care about holding onto it as long as you've had it once.
But somehow, not everything as easy as saying. I can say i want to give up a thousand times, forget everything a million, know nothing about you a quintillion. It is whether i really feel it that way :O.
Not sure of you, dont think i do stand any chance. People have been telling me to forget the thought and give it up. I'm somehow psyched but i can't seem to. Just not so easy getting someone you love out of your life huh.
Phone has a wallpaper of you, Blogskin has you, my cardholder is from you, a card you gave my in my second cardholder. Things arent easy..

You're at Japan now. Wonder at times whether i should give you a text to see how you're at there. Whether you're having fun with the snow, shopping, scenery sightings and everything. Yet i am afraid its just that stupid thought of mine. Doubt i will receive replies, even if i do get it, so what. Sometimes things make us go numb.

I thought, maybe when the posting results are out, both of us might not even contact, going on our own separate paths. From there you might meet new friends, new guys who might be even better to you than i did. So maybe i might just lift off the thought once school start. Dragging things without any results isnt doing any better. What your mum said could be right, our personalities clash badly that its tough for us to be.

For this portion, it will be about friendships :O. I can't believe that i actually have to post about this. To a large extent, i feel that he was overboard by accusing me as a Fucker when i did not even know he took an interest for a girl whom my close mate as well, loved. However, thinking further, yes indeed, love makes one jealous, who can deny that? Therefore i chose not to be agitated and i never did get angry over that matter. Love is just a too serious cause for everything.
My dear friends, do peace out. 4E4 is already separated is to so many different cliques that even when we have FULL CLASS GATHERINGS, only about 1/2 turn up. If even our 4e4 boy's clique fail to even be Bonded or United in the sense, hey, whats becoming of us? A Class of 5or10? I am pretty sure none will want to see that becoming a reality the next time a class gathering is held. I understand both your situations, two close friends love the same girl and both do not want to hurt the friendship over it. But it DID hurt.
I believe the only thing to do now if you both love her, is to continue wooing but both of you be friends like before. Respect whatever decisions she make and know that Love can't be forced. Afterall, if you do love someone, it isnt a matter of being together with her but knowing that she is happy even with someone else. It hurts but love is this, self-sacrificing. Isn't it? I could be wrong, nevertheless, thats what i think and my 2cents.